How is my day?

It was nice these few days. I finally see my effort paid off. Someone is becoming happier.

Maybe I should not expect more.
I offered to pick her up and send her home. But someone offered first. Vroom vroom... a car drove her home.
Her comment was, "car is easier"
I am feeling awful.
Damn awful. Damn damn awful. Damn damn damn damn awful.
I really wish to see her as much as I could before i left for my reservist.
I am not confident of myself at all.

I told myself. Let her study for her exam. Don't disturb her on Thursday. I shall try. Try to live my life without her.

I have done my part le. I think she is getting over her lowest moment of her life. I truly love her.

I have been motivating myself. Laughing, talking out loud, comforting all those who lose their fighting spirit in life. I really need someone to help me please. I am just a human.