In the past ......

Just cant help looking back into the past ... ...

I know F from irc. Soon after, we chatted on phone. We can chat anything under the sun. She is a happy person, very cheerful and lively. Always full of things to say and never got bored of talking. Slowly, I found her a lonely person, when her bf decided to abandon her. I was there at the right moment and right time, to be there to entertain her. Slowly, I get to know her more, her family, friends and life. Then I fell in love with this gal. This simple gal.

Soon after, I become a slave. I did everything she demanded and did extra to make her happy. During those time, it was only her in my mind.

Even during my ICT, I thought that things will get sour. To my amazement, those are the times she did consider me. That saturday we spent together was so unforgetable. How I wish time can stop at that moment. I held her hand and told her "dunno when can I hold this hand again."

True enough. things get sour after that. I become very possessive and irritating. My care and concern become a burden to her and she is feeling breathless. She feel that we are not suitable for each other. I totally agree and I decide to change and take things easy. I will still care for her and be there whenever she feel sad. Never will I let her down or abandon her. Other things just leave it to GOD and fate. I am serious about this relationship.

I could not love her the way she want me to because I am myself. Hope she will treasure our relationship and try and work it out.

I love her.